jumbled_mind: (the stars will cry)
[Filter: Private]

I would have preferred to be the one to die.

I suppose it came down to that, didn't it.
jumbled_mind: (Default)
[Filter: Private]

[a long pause]

I should simply never write in this again.
jumbled_mind: (pessimist)
[Filter: Private]



I suppose you would want me to go on.

Wouldn't you?
jumbled_mind: (shitty)
[Filter: Sh Private]

I

[a very long pause]

Is this what you wanted?
jumbled_mind: (shitty)
[Filter: Private]








she's dead.




i killed her.
jumbled_mind: (Default)
[Filter: Private]

Sh [the rest of the rather large block of text has been blotted out beyond readability]
jumbled_mind: (pessimist)
[Filter: Private]

[a long pause followed by a series of things completely scratched out. and several long streaks of ink running down the whole page.]
jumbled_mind: (Default)
[Filter: Shasta]

Is tonight too short-notice?
jumbled_mind: (Default)
[Filter: Shasta]

I

How are you doing?
jumbled_mind: (cynical)
[Filter: Private]




How much longer.


[Filter: Shasta]
jumbled_mind: (Default)
[Filter: Private]

I'm not sure what I expect. Do I expect the world to burst into flames to stop me? Do I expect everything to stop? Time to stand still?

How many more times will I do this.

How much longer.

The least I can do is be with Father on the Festival. It's the first he'll have had with me in years. It's the least I can do.

How much longer.
jumbled_mind: (cynical)
[Filter: Private]

How many more times do I plan to do this.
jumbled_mind: (Default)
[Filter: Shasta]

Have you heard of a place called the Bright Dragon?
jumbled_mind: (pessimist)
[Filter: Private]

This is ridiculous. I feel like a rat, hiding out down here.

[Filter: Julian]

What will I have to say to get you to talk?
jumbled_mind: (pessimist)
[Filter: Shasta]

Please get yourself to safety.
jumbled_mind: (Default)
[Filter: Private]

...

[obliterated]

[Filter: Shasta]

Shasta.
jumbled_mind: (cynical)
[Private, in Old Dentorian]

What am I expecting.

It changes nothing. I can't

I want

What am I thinking.

Idiot. Idiot, idiot, idiot...

[Filter: Public, in Trade]

My congratulations to the newlyweds.
jumbled_mind: (Default)
[Filter: Private, Old Dentorian]

Why do I want

stupid

You'll damn yourself, are you a fool
jumbled_mind: (Default)
[Filter: Private, in Old Dentorian]

One night.

We can't do it again.

... [something very methodically scratched out]

Mustn't.

...Dragons am I a fool...

[Filter: Shas
jumbled_mind: (confused)
[Private, in High Dentorian]

Shouldn't be doing this.

Shouldn't be doing this.

Don't even have any ideas. If Mydra knows I'm planning something, I'm doubtless being watched. Shasta I cannot take risks.

Shouldn't be doing this.

Dragons, I want to see her.

[Filter: Shasta, in Trade]

If we could come up with somewhere between us that we could meet, this would be much easier.
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